Today is a new day

Although I am exhausted from working OT since Monday.. I went to work today and had a great time. Breakast consisted of a redbull and some guacamole....yummy!!! After work we spent the after noon at Tio George & Jenny's new restaurant. Its a work in progress but with lots of love and care its going to turn out great!!! I am so looking forward to Spending 5 days off with my 2 girls and spending quality time with family.

Feelings of Blahness

With the holidays around the corner I have had this overwhelming Blah feeling. There is so much going on that I don't even know where to begin. I know that I am blessed with 2 kids and a fiancee who adore me, a great circle of friends that understands my views on life for the most part and a good job. I just however can't shake this feeling.

My 12 year old is going through the changes of life and is driving me insane most days..

My 6 year old is to sassy for her own good...

Princess ( our 5 year old pitbull) is getting out of hand.. and I think the time has come to put her down

Salem ( our 1 yr old pit mix) is not gaining any weight...

Lilo ( our 4 yr old chiweiner) is heartworm positive..

Luis has 2 daughters who are out of control.. 1 is pregnant and 1 has no respect for anyone and a son who could care less about us....

My mother is HIV+ and I haven't talked to her in almost 2 years.. because the drugs are more important to her than her kids..

and my 17 yr old sister just gave birth to her second kid...

SO when I think about all these things I do get stressed.. because there is only so much I can do to fix things.. and a lot of it is beyond my control... and this I guess is why I feel so BLAH!!

Oh the tweens

Here I am .. a mom to a 12 yr old who thinks she is 30.. but acts like she is 8. We have our good days and our bad days. Lately seems to be more bad then good.... but I have faith that at some point it will be the other way around. She lies, she is sneaky and is caving in to peer pressure and I am trying my best to guide her the right way. But how am I suppose to compete with boys and friends? And not to mention all the other things that she is exposed to? I stick to my word when I punish her.. I take things from her.. I talk to her but still nothing seems to be getting through. Where oh where has my sweet little girl gone??